Really Sucky Day

Wednesday December 11th, 2013

I am feeling defeated

Most days I see the light and feel hope 

Try and look at the bigger picture

Today I just feel like a loser

I know everyone says...

"oh but look at all your gains and this and that"

I just don't want to hear that because I feel like there are 

SO MANY WEAKNESSES

BIG ones

HOLES  

I know all I can do is KEEP MOVING FORWARD

I WON'T GIVE UP

I just wanted to sit down and cry today

Defeated

Nutrition

Today was another good nutrition day

I haven't really had an appetite the past 2 days

I don't know why, I have had to make an extra effort to eat every 3 hours

Meal #1 

1/4 cup raspberries

1/2 cup ezekiel bread

25 grams protein

Meal #2

1 egg

3 egg whites

1 cup broccoli

Meal #3

4oz chicken

2 cups spinach

Meal #4

*This one was split up cause I had to teach the kids class, 

so I just grabbed the almonds and had the shake after. 

25 grams protein

10 almonds

Meal #5

4oz tilapia

2 cups spinach

Meal #6

(not pictured cause I haven't eaten it yet)

10 almonds

Workout

* I was really sore today, back, lats, shoulders and neck...like to the touch.

Morning JOG

* I jogged a mile- I just wanted to make sure my knee was good.

 Its feeling better each day thank the heavens above. 

Afternoon

Endurance:

2x800m @80% Rest- 2 min. 

1st time: 4:05

2nd time: 4:11

Muscle-ups 6x1 (no luck)

Even Minutes

Squat Clean and Jerk (Based of 215lb max)

Odd Minutes

1×3 @ 60% 130lbs

1×3 @ 65% 140lbs

1×2 @ 70% 150lbs

1×2 @ 75% 160lbs

1×1 @ 80% 170lbs

1×1 @ 85% 180lbs

Squat Clean Thruster @110lbs *1 rep every 10 seconds for 5 minutes=30reps)

This was REALLY HARD, I totally dug deep for this today. 

*Didn't make the time cap*

*spent a lot of time on the bar muscle ups*

--got into the 3d round--

WOD:

3 Rounds

Row 600m

30 Pistol Squats

6 Bar Muscle Ups

--Elbows were throbbing afterwards--

*Something I am "happy" about*

I am DONE with school till January 

and

I am DONE with work after Saturday, until January

SO

I can train on Saturdays and I can come in the mornings to

work on skills everyday

instead of JUST Tue and Thurs mornings!!!

...I NEED this...

Tomorrow morning I am  coming in to do this stuff:

GHR (3x10)

Glute Ham Raises

GHD Situps (3x10)

MU skill work

Running and Air Dyne